Today I sent my "Babies" off to big girl school. All of them. 2nd Grade and 2 in Kindergarten.
For the last 7 years of my life I have been a Stay at Home Mom. My days have been full of poop diapers, vomit, mashing up baby food, teaching babies to walk, to talk, and to say their ABC's. I've obsessed over watching them breathe at night, over rashes, coughs and bumps on the head. I've packed up storage bins of tiny little clothes, passed along the highchairs and strollers and converted everyone into Big Girl Beds.
I now know the true meaning of complete exhaustion, extreme frustration and absolute mortification.
In the last 7 years, I have felt more needed, more loved and more fulfilled than I have in my entire life. I have laughed harder than ever, and have given more kisses and hugs than I could possibly count.
As of this morning I am an Empty Nester. My girls will now be spending more time at school with their teachers than they will be spending at home with me each day. While I feel confident about our very capable teachers, I can't help but be jealous that they are going to be getting the best part of my kids each day.
They are going to get all of my laughs, my smiles, my outrageous stories and my snuggle time. I'm going to get the toughest part of every day. The hustle and bustle of sports, homework, dinner, baths and bed.
To say this transition has been tough on me is an understatement. I've been trying my best to get them excited and help calm their little nerves, while choking back the tears.
Today starts a new chapter in our lives. They will be growing, changing, learning, and making new friends. I will have the chance to launch my new business, relocate my non-mommy self, have some uninterrupted conversations with other adults, and possibly find time to un-sticky my house, all while keeping one eye on the clock and waiting for that 3 o'clock bell to ring.
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body." ~Elizabeth Stone
|First Day of School 2013!|