Sunday, March 02, 2008

Munchkin = Trooper

Do you have any idea how difficult this separation has been for me? I feel so incredibly guilty for not being able to care for my own child. I realize that what I'm doing is short term, she won't remember it, and I have to do, what I have to do for these babies.

My sister who kept her this week, said that she seemed really sad, and was very clingy. Hubby brought her up here and she looked tired and sickly. This completely broke my heart. She's been so good. Not fussing or crying when she leaves, just asking for me throughout the day. I absolutely miss her more than anything. I get to see her a lot, but it's funny how you can begin to crave another person.

Today was actually a really great day. Hubby brought the Munchkin up here and I was able to go AWOL for a little while. They gave us a wheelchair and Hubby wheeled me outside where we were able to sit in the beautiful weather, and enjoy the sunshine. Munchkin thought the wheelchair ride was the greatest thing ever. I felt like a big dork, but I was out of the room and not about to complain.

I guess it's true that it's harder on us, as Moms, than it is for the kids that have to be without us. She is such a great kid and completely makes my day when I see her walk in the door.

This is by far one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life -- and truly one of the toughest tests I will ever have to face.

*sniff* *sniff*

4 comments:

Mommapeas said...

Hang in there. She's stronger than you think and it sounds like she's handling this like a very big girl. I'm proud of you both and can't wait until everyone is safe and sound at home. We love you guys!

anglophilefootballfanatic said...

I wondered if it had sunk in for you yet. It's a bit of an adventure for her, too. And, if Hub can keep bringing her and you guys find things to occupy time, I'm sure she'll be fine.

Steph said...

(((HUGS))) They are resilient and you're right, she wont remember. ITA with AFF!

Amy J said...

Not much longer now!