Monday, January 28, 2008

Why?

I've sat down several times this past weekend poised to finish some of the posts that I had already started, but we received some devastating news on Saturday that has made everything else seem completely insignificant.

My BFF called us early Saturday morning to inform us that her Husband (Agent B.) had passed away suddenly in the ER there in Virgina. The cause of death has been determined as a form of bacterial meningitis that attacked his immune system, and killed him in less than 12 hours. He went to bed not feeling well on Friday night, just a headache. He felt progressively worse throughout the night and decided it would be a good idea to go to the ER. While waiting to be seen he passed out and could not be revived.

As you can imagine we are completely in shock - things like this aren't supposed to happen to your loved ones. It's always somebody else's, somebody. A friend of a friends cousin, not your best friend. But then again, to think that you are immune from this is probably a stupid way live your life.

Agent B. has touched the lives of everyone that has ever known him. Especially ours. We formed a bond with them the first time we ever met. We have traveled together, attended football games, went through pregnancy and miscarriages with them and trusted them completely to be the legal guardians over our children in case something were to happen to us.

I wish with all of my heart that there was something more that I could do for BFF and their beautiful son. It's a situation where nothing seems right, no words, no actions, seem to fit. We are left now with the wonderful memories that Agent B. has given us, and it will be up to us to make sure that they are passed down so that their son will truly know his Father.

To my BFF, who will most likely never read this post -- I love you and I'm thinking of you.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Family Fun Night

We did it! We took the Munchkin to the circus. Hubby and I both think it's been about 20 years since we have made that adventure, but with the Munchkin being the right age to actually love clowns and not fear them like I have since I was about 7, we thought it would be a great night out.

Our seats were fantastic, & up close, we could see everything going on. We even caught the Munchkin yelling at the clowns to "blow more bubbles." She loved the tigers, the "ele-phan-ants," "aco-bats," and most of all the blue cotton candy. Which oddly enough will cycle though the digestive system in exactly 24 hours, and come out still blue - in case you needed to know.

Hubby and I were thoroughly impressed by the show, and quite shocked at how expensive things were now, $12.00 for a bag of cotton candy!!! Poor "Mary Kate and Ashley," they will most likely never be able to attend the circus at this rate of inflation. Oh well, at least we got in one good trip with the Munchkin.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

The Truth, The Whole Truth.....

I was tagged by Random Mommy some days ago to complete this little task, so here goes.


Why do you blog?
I'm completely self absorbed and love nothing better than talking about myself. All of you reading do nothing but boost my ego and make me want to post more. Oh, and I also find it kind of therapeutic - I like keeping a little journal of things that the Munchkin does.

What was the first blog you ever read?

Something off of the site Babble, This Girls Gone Child or something.

What was the first blog that had you hooked?
Probably one of the bloggers on Babble - For someone that I know, it was Random Mommy.

Which blogger friend would you most like to meet in real person?
I would have to say Catwoman because she is laugh out loud funny, and friends with Random Mommy, so any friend of hers has to be good. I would also like to Meet AFF - especially now that she dumped lasagna on her Uggs, totally something I would do. Plus she looks alot like my BFF in Virgina. I think we could be good friends.

Which blog do you admire the most, why?

I have to go with either Random Mommy or Catwoman, both completely hysterical and honest -- nothing held back.

How different are you in real life than in your blog?
Hmmm, tough question. I think I'm pretty much the same. Maybe in person I have worse language and I will pretty much talk about anything with anyone who will listen. On here I have family that reads, so I think I hold back some, especially when it comes to my sex life... My Mom reads.... Yuck!

How many blogs do you keep up with on a daily basis?
Daily about 5 or 6 -- weekly everyone on my blogroll and then some, 20 or more easy.

Link to your 123rd post. Or your 3rd, if you don't have 123.

http://augirl75.blogspot.com/2007/07/where-are-brakes-on-this-thing_31.html

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Supposed to be Sleeping!

While the Munchkin has been very good not to come out of her room when she is finished with her nap, or first thing in the morning, she has discovered that she can hop up, get a toy(s) and return safely to her bed.

Instead of napping today, this is what she did..........



And yes, that is a pack of pull ups!

Par for the Course.

I had my glucose test today and surprise, surprise, I failed! By two lousy points. So now I have to make yet another trip to the Doctors office, this time for the 3 hour screening. I completely expected not to pass this test, the way this pregnancy has gone it wouldn't have seemed right to have passed. The whole not eating thing really messes me up, I was sick and in the bathroom at the Doctors office this morning before I even drank that "syrupy goodness."

When I was pregnant with the Munchkin, I got sick, passed out, woke up in the floor of the nurses station vomiting into a trash can. I of course had to repeat that 1 hour test because there was nothing left in my system, then I failed and had to go back to take the 3 hour, and passed.

Me + glucose test = Not good!

Side bar: The real reason they are concerned about gestational diabetes is because in a full term pregnancy the baby will be huge.... If I'm not going to be full term, in fact they will most likely be about 10 weeks PRE-mature, isn't a bigger baby better? Just a thought.

Monday, January 21, 2008

Hey Yankees!! Go Ahead and Laugh....

We got a little "snow" over the weekend. For anyone living up north or that happens to be here now and grew up around snow, I know how ridiculous this looks, but give us a break, it was something. The Munchkin thoroughly enjoyed herself, we even made a snowman.

Note: Snowman in picture appears larger than it's actual size.



Catching snowflakes on her tongue.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

A Night In the Life......

At a time in my life when I NEED my sleep, I can't seem to get any! It's ironic if you think about it, I'm completely exhausted from carrying these 2 babies, and if we look ahead to my future, I most likely will never sleep again, yet sleep evades me.

9:45 - Off to bed, thinking I'm getting a bit of a head start. I pee, take my vitamin, apply chapstick and decide to read for a little while.

10:30
- Apply more chapstick, turn out the light and settle in on my right side with my "cuddle" pillow. Hubby? Already sleeping.

10:35
- Flip over to left side, I forgot that my ribs on the right side start hurting after a few minutes.

10:36 - Re-adjust on my left side because my left hip hurts from my injection today. Roll a little more forward and arrange bedding behind me to keep me pushed forward.

11:24
- Get up to pee - punch Hubby who is snoring, settle back in on my left side.

11:25 - Need more pillows, get up, grab all that I can find on the floor, reapply chapstick, prop myself up with all of my pillows.

11:54 - Too many damn pillows on the bed, throw them all off.

1:16 - Shit! How long have I been sleeping on my back? What kind of damage have I done to the babies? Did my heavy uterus crush them, did I cut off blood flow? Wake up babies, give me a little kick - continue to pat belly until they kick back. Okay, good.

1:26 - Good babies, stop kicking, time to sleep...... Go to sleep, Now! Pee.

3:02
- Feel the need to pee. Get up, pee a few drops. Hmmm? Bladder is empty, do I need to drink more? What if the babies are dehydrated? It's not good for them to not have water. Gulp down water. Reapply chapstick (See Websters for: ADDICTION)

5:18 - Pee - Damn water.

5:50 - Hubby's alarm goes off, he gets up, gets ready for the gym. Leaves.

6:56
- Leg cramp, leg cramp, Ahhhhhh, make it stop! Pop up, massage right calf muscle. Fight the urge to cry from the pain.

7:15 Hubby returns from gym, gets ready for work.

8:00 - Munchkin is up. Time to make the doughnuts.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Wintery Mix?

Oh please, Oh please, Oh please!!! It's been sleeting here most of the day and started with a little bit of flurries this afternoon. The temp is still around 40 degrees, so nothing is sticking.

I'm such a kid when it comes to snowy weather. Do you have any idea how long it's been since we've had snow here??? FOREVER! We are due, my child needs to experience this. I'm not asking for much, maybe just a good dusting. Please, oh please, snow gods. I didn't run out and buy my milk and bread like a good, panicked Alabamian, punish me!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Good News!

Just thought I would give you a quick update on the progress of little "Mary Kate and Ashley" (lovingly nicknamed by my "bitches") We had another targeted ultrasound at UAB on Friday..... It was a great appointment. The Dr was very positive about the way the babies are growing. As far as size, they weighed in at 1 lb 11 oz, and the other 1 lb 10 oz. As I mentioned in previous updates, having them close in size is important to keep from having any complications with twin to twin transfer. Although "Baby B" is still showing signs of having one non functional kidney, her other seems to still be developing normally. The Doc spent a lot of time looking at their hearts and said that they look "beautiful." Another win!

So with that said, we are back to the waiting game, waiting for our next milestone and praying that everything goes smoothly until then. I am about 25 weeks along right now. We will start monitoring the babies twice a week, at week 26 -- from there we will start our daily monitoring at week 28, then it's a guessing game. 28 weeks seems to be the magic number and anything beyond would be fantastic. I'm still going in weekly for progesterone injections and will receive a round of steroids next week. All in all, things are going well. Our prayers are being answered.

I must thank each and everyone of you, for all of your prayers and support. I don't think a day goes by that I don't have someone checking in with us and letting us know that we are being thought of, and/or being added to the prayer list of someone's, mothers cousin. We have people praying for us that we have never met, and to think that you all have helped with that is truly amazing. Hubby, Munchkin and I appreciate and love you all for your support and encouragement.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Mama's Love

This is not another post about my favorite sandwich from Mama G's, I know that everyone around me is tired of hearing about my love for that place. This post is about how a 33 year old, grown woman, wife, and mother of one with two on the way, still needs her Mom.

The little bout of stomach sickness that the Munchkin experienced last weekend, was indeed a virus, a bug that struck the rest of this household early Thursday morning, rendering me completely helpless. I woke up at 2:00 am nauseated, thinking that my morning sickness was kicking in again, I ended up on the sofa tossing and turning and eventually puking in a bucket for the next 6 hours. I cannot remember a time when I was so absolutely miserable. I just kept thinking about how this was way worse than any of the morning sickness I had been complaining about.

Hubby stayed home to look after the Munchkin and take her to ballet. My Mom came over around lunch and took over. She took care of me, my child and my house. She was a complete lifesaver!!! Hubby came home from work, sick. Mom stayed over, continued to run my household and I had no worries in the world. What a tremendous help she was. It just goes to show you that you always need your Mommy.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Download This.

If you have seen the movie "Knocked Up" then you have heard this song, with or without knowing it. "Daughter" by Loudon Wainwright III, maybe it's the hormones but this song makes me sentimental and weepy -- if you have a daughter yourself, you will definitely like this song.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Hip to Hip.

The point has come in this pregnancy that I can no longer see, much less shave my own wussy! All of the bending, stretching, and willing my belly to give just a little, is not working.

What's a girl to do? Because I refuse to sport a "hip to hip" style (if you will) I must continue to take this task on blindly, this could be bad, very bad. All I can think of is how lucky my Doctor is that I will be having a C-Section.

Monday, January 07, 2008

Happy "Barf"day To Me!

Funny how puking on my birthday used to have such a different meaning, and would happen under very different circumstances!

We were awakened yesterday morning at about 1:30am, to the Munchkin puking in her bed. My poor baby was covered, along with her bed, bedding and part of the wall behind her bed. Why is it so sad to see them sick? We still aren't sure if it was something that she ate or a touch of this stomach bug that seems to be going around. After 1 bath, 2 loads of laundry, 3 wardrobe changes and 1 round of "Cinderella" we all settled in for whatever rest we could possibly get on the air mattress in the living room. She seemed to be fine yesterday and today, no other symptoms and no more puke. Thank you Lord!

My birthday was pretty uneventful, we spent most of it either snuggling with the Munchkin, or cleaning out the twins bedroom and boxing stuff up for charity. 33 years young, and what a year we have ahead of us!!! Although I don't feel 33, I guarantee that by the time 34 gets here, I will feel every bit of it, and then some!

Thank you to Hubbby for my cookie cake, I'm on a personal mission to finish the entire thing on my own. I figure this is the only time I will have an excuse to eat a whole cake in 3 days! Mmmmm, Hmmmmm!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Thank You, Ladies!!!

I have to give a big THANK YOU to my "Bitches" for a much needed night out with the girls. We went out for dinner last night with the intentions of catching the JG film Juno, but were having such great conversation over dinner that time slipped away from us, so we went across to Victoria's Secret to buy panties and PJ's instead.

At the risk of sounding completely mushy and sentimental, I feel so fortunate to have found this circle of friends that I have. We talk about everything from politics to poop, and truly enjoy each others company, drama free.

I know that with everything I have going on in my life right now, I have a solid support system around me. Friends that will be in my hospital room with movies and chocolate, or be picking my child up for playdates.

I love each of you dearly, and can't tell you how much I needed that little "pre" birthday outing. Thanks for all of my goodies, dinner and great company!!

Friday, January 04, 2008

Can't We All just Get Along?

The answer to that question these days seems to be hell no. I don't usually do cryptic, try to be sly, but not really sly posts or comments on my Facebook page, but this post to some, will be cryptic. For others it's going to hit the nail on the head, you are going to know exactly who you are. I've been holding this post for a while, but it seems again like things are being misconstrued, so I thought I would set the record straight on my end.

I have a lot of people that I like to call friends, but hold a dear few as my super, close, "porn buddy" friends. There are many reasons for this and if you are a girl you should know why. Girls like to run their mouths. We by nature, like to talk, a lot. We gossip, we make fun of, it's what we do. I'm not going to sit here and say that I don't talk about people behind their backs, because I do. For you to say you don't makes you a liar. I have a few very close friends that I talk to about everything. When Hubby tells me not to tell, he knows that I will tell them. Unless he has specifically said it's titanium fight club. When I have problems with people, they are the ones I go to for advice, when I'm upset they are the ones that encourage me, those are the people that I call my best friends. I think that you can have lots of people in your life that are friends, but only a few that are your "inner circle."

I don't have ulterior motives, if I don't like you, you will pretty much know it. If I don't like you I won't go out of my way to do things for you. And for the record there are very few people that I just don't like. If I have a problem with you and you are an important person to me, I will try to work it out. If we can't or don't, I won't go and explain to multiple people, who will then tell multiple people and so, what went wrong, for it to eventually be so far off base it's no where near the actual truth. It is what it is, it's called taking the high road. I won't make little jabs at you on public forums for no reason, I have better things to do, trust me. So you can rest assured when I put something on my status that you don't understand it's not about you. Really, it's not.

I've learned a lot lately about myself and about others. People change, sometimes for the good, sometimes for the bad. Girls in their 30's and 40's are no different than high school girls who like to gossip. People that say they don't want to be involved or in the middle are the ones that are always up to their eyeballs in the middle of EVERYTHING.

I will never put my friends in bad situations, situations that will make them feel the need to apologize for my behavior. I will never talk bad about my friends or go behind them and try to get others to do the same. That's not what friends do. I will not apologize for only wanting a few really close friends. What I don't understand is why people, grown women have to act so childish. Why do grown women let others dictate who they can be friends with? Why do grown women still try to bully people around? Those are the thing I've yet to figure out.

So, to answer the question. Is this post about you? If you even remotely think it is, it's probably your conscience telling you it is. If you have something to say to me, please say it, if I have misinterpreted some of the gossipy bullshit I've overheard, please feel free to correct me. I'm just so tired of the high school behavior that has become so transparent my 9 month olds could figure it out. Say it, to me.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

I. Hate. Cold. Weather.

If you even remotely know me, you know that I completely despise, hate, loathe, detest and dislike cold weather. If it gets cold, I stay inside. Having a child has only made this worse. Today I had to venture out, it was 29 degrees with a wind chill somewhere in the teens. It sucked. I went to one place, and came home. Most of you reading are Moms, and know the hassles of loading a child in and out of the car in "normal" weather, add in the coat, the hat, the gloves, and you can forget about it.

In my opinion if it's going to be this cold, it should snow, otherwise give me my 70 degree weather any day. Yes, I realize that I am a complete and total pansy, but I'm a southern girl for a reason. When it's as cold as a witches titty in a brass bra, I tend to think about relocation. South Florida? Mexico?

If you need me, I'll be at the house, bundled up in my sweats and blankets until the thermometer in my car no longer reads "ice."