Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Where are the Brakes on this Thing?

I've been trying desperately to slow this thing down for about 2 years now. This "thing" I refer to is Life. It is going by way to fast and I don't like it, at all.

Discussions have begun with some of my friends about putting the kiddies in some type of Mothers Day Out programs, and about looking for Pre Schools. The thought of this makes me physically sick, ok, maybe just emotionally sick, but I can't stand the thought of my little Munchkin heading off to school... period.

I used to think that I would be the Mom that wasn't so attached. The one that would be dumping her kid off with anyone that would keep her, so I could do my "Mommy things", only I've realized that she is my "thing", and I love it.

If I send her off to school, sure I could get the house cleaned faster, but who's going to help me swiffer, while saying "I help"? I could get in and out of the grocery store in record time, but who's little voice will be there to say, "cookie mama, cookie"?

I do know that we have to be proactive about her education, we absolutely want the best for her, which means doing the research now and getting on the waiting lists for next year (or the next, even 2010 is looking pretty good). It's suddenly becoming very real.

I know that she needs to learn a little about life without me being there ALL. THE. TIME. And a classroom environment will be good for her, but until I can get these brakes working, she's not going anywhere!


Anonymous said...

Try MDO for a day or two a week. She will love it!

I think Punkin' enjoys the break from dear old Mommy. But it doesn't help keep my house any cleaner.

We are taking the plunge and adding an extra day this fall. His choice, not mine.

chichimama said...

A few hours once or twice a week might be good for both of you, based on my experience. I cried my eyes out when I left my son for the first time at preschool, and by the second week we were both much happier. But the trauma leading up to it and during the first few weeks was hard.

Good luck in making a decision, what ever you choose will be right for you.

J said...

It was the hardest thing I've ever done (you know, thusfar). Anyway, it has proven to be so much more rewarding for us than I ever anticipated. I'm not saying it has been all positive, but what will be. Anyway, you'll know if it's right for you guys and when. I just wanted Ava to get a head start on group dynamics. I don't know if it worked ;)