Monday, May 21, 2007

T Minus 12 Hours

As I write this post, I am freaking the hell out!!!! In about 12 hours, I will be getting put under with a general anesthesia, which I must say scares me more than the thought of the procedure itself, or any of the pain and discomfort that can possibly come with it or the recovery.

Hear are my irrational fears, and yes, I am fully aware that they are irrational.

1. Death -- lots of things can wrong with anesthesia. Deep down I know it's rare, and that I'm probably safer on that operating table than I am driving to the hospital. The thought of being put to sleep and never waking up is in my mind.

2. I once read a story about a lady that appeared to be "under", only she could feel and hear everything that was going on. She couldn't scream or move..... How horrible would that be? Again, irrational I know. I'm sure that I read this in some Cosmo 5 years ago...

3. Far less irrational, adverse side effects to the anesthesia, having never had it, how do I know that I'm not going to get violently ill and puke up my guts in the recovery room? I don't like to throw up, until our beach trip a couple of weeks ago I had not thrown up in years... I made it through my entire pregnancy with nausea but fought back the urge to vomit every day for 5 weeks straight, I'm not kidding, I don't throw up.

4. Even less irrational is, what the hell kind of goofy shit is going to come out of my mouth that Hubby will be able to hold against me. You always hear about the funny things people say....

So many things are going through my mind right now. I am armed with many questions for my Doctor. I have cried many tears and will most likely cry a few more before tomorrow, the one thing I know, is that this time tomorrow it will be over... and the healing process will have begun.

1 comment:

random_mommy said...

Heal mama heal. We're thinking about you.

And just for your own knowledge- I woke up during my wisdom teeth extractions... not as scary as you think. More odd.